You know what after today’s rigmarole I need a fresh place to cater to us weirdo, noncommital types. Can’t be sure of good lesbian bar, for lack of aggro, testosterone males, didn’t look for geeko lounge in recent years. I want a damn free zone! Place for me to rest my jerky head. No more regs asking questions I’m too fed up with to answer, no looks of confusing emotional resonance. I want some Tourette’s bar. I saw s vid of aussie youngens getting together and loving the commune tics, and I want it. Anger is hard to stop. Tried for so many years but hardness. Hard teeth biting back with malice. Stop feeling bad bout what u born with i say to me. Stop but never do eh? Built in devil pitchfork my ass hot fiah. Love thyself like godly task.
Let em stay let em know
Clueless boys open mouth drastic
Funny tics funny shit
Every whiteboy sacred and safey
What’s it like when you’re head’s not full of words
What’s it like after body shots that drain emotional spots spin their wheels
What you say during growing when the monster inner growls its yearning
Desire taketh over and pissed off vibes runneth closer
Tell me what to think, what to say
Aren’t you tired of independence yet
Aren’t you sick of differential split
Like a math formula they all got bored of
Where is the friends that rise up the horrid
Sinking loose lips trying to kiss but getting frogs
When do I, we, get some cover
Manholes, sinkholes, open opening
Think too much
What is life without a thought
What do I go on for but to entertain myself
Nuts to the wall but friends can’t always humor
I alone make better merriment
Those lovely friends just apparitions
Hear others say such love such life
Where to find these spirits nigh
Where to let loose mindly clutter
What’s it like when silence is
Sometimes when you drunk you feel you’re gay and it’s ok. You spend life blah blahing then you get sozzled and feel like sucking a nice dick. Like clean and shaved and antiseptic. Like 3 secs of I’m bored of asexual or femme femme, then this night is gray so I need some hyper fucks.
Maybe In Another Universe, I Deserve You
By Gaby Dunn,
Maybe there’s a universe where that’s the life I want. Where I don’t second guess everything and I’m not afraid of commitment and of the future and of love. Maybe there’s a universe without all the noise in my head and the pride that makes me so fiercely independent and the coldness in my heart that I can turn on and off like a security fence…
Also I heard of her only because of buffering the vampire slayer podcast. Fun inclusive podcast bout Buffy eps.
Okay pretty white girl?
Compared to me how many times have you been called a faggot or homo?
Since you’re correcting me on PC terminology tell me your strife and struggles
Tell me the life you lived as an oddity, a freak/geek/nerd weirdo
The years of pushing through fight fight right to exist plight
Beats and dog piles on the outsider weird guy
Fighting for your pride or maybe life against jocks and thugs and small minds
Boys dumb and fucked, grabbing your man boobs and twisting and laughing suckers up
Calling you gaylord while rubbing your breasts
Hating yourself for fat massed up there
Chestal area no flats there
Fuck you pretty white girl!
For scolding me, trying to educate me, trying to encapsulate my experiences and life with your borrowed online awareness posts
you spoken “woke” and praising self
you huffed and puffed cause you on the right side of history eh?
Troopers and truthsayers all of us renegades
Every new one
Every gen y and millennial a soldier for the reprieve
Of good ones and Reason
Of common sense withdrawn from Our expression
Tell us please
Tell us massa
You so educated
Youse the media plasters
Darlings and camera whores
When you see a brown man talking bout bisexuality or gender politics
Tell me please in comments after this
Me need to learn so I don’t be patronizing accomplice
Sellouts always sell themselves on giving in.