Family comes in, get a few words into the conversation. Loudness and overtalking, diminished returns on excitement. Why is it easier talking to bar friends? I should care more about what’s being said but I don’t, don’t got the music in me. The rhythm passed me by. I’ll jump on the wagon later. Should buy more presents for them instead of drinks and cigs. Should donate more but I don’t. What happened to that sweet choirboy type who healed the world? Gah just stop being a dick, early resolution. Being the change leads to that positivity, the craving.